Wednesday, October 3, 2007

time, rest, renewal, reconnection

The following is a reprint of an earlier post from my previous blog space (thecenterofmyself.spaces.live.com). It's now been 7 weeks since I was laid off. I trust that I will be where I'm supposed to be, and right now, I accept that I'm supposed to be right where I am. But, I'm ready to get back to work. I don't know yet where I will be, but I accept that and don't resist the changes that have occurred in my life. "Receive what you have been given." Each day, each moment is a gift of undeniable beauty. I receive and embrace all that I have been given. My morning walk earlier today showed me beautiful roses still blooming in vibrant, strong colors, still blooming despite the change in the weather, happy to be right where they are. I can do no less.

September 13
time, rest, renewal, reconnection

It's been one month today since I was laid off, a time during which I'm ever more aware of how perfectly the Divine works in my life, providing abundant blessings and grace ...

Each morning, I strap on my brace, making sure it fits firmly and snugly, lace up my brown Vans and take a walk through the surrounding neighborhood. Now that I'm between opportunities, I have time to do this for myself, enjoying exercise and fresh air at the start of my day, instead of driving off to work. I say hello to people I meet, see the changes people are making to their homes and landscaping, admire the garden designs, or the new paint or the new addition that's going up. I notice the changes in the greenery as we move toward fall, certain flowers fading while others are still rip-roaring with blooms. It's a beautiful time, a time when I can connect with all that is around me. This morning I had a nice chat with a man walking a beautiful brindle pitt bull dog, a rescue dog. Friendly hellos and smiles to others, fresh air, a wave to a neighbor - not a bad way to start a morning.

In my little garden, I'm noticing that the salvia responds better to more water than I'd been giving it when I was working. I didn't know that before I was laid off. The skies are clear and blue, the ocean breeze a bit brisk and cool, early for this time of year. Things that I wouldn't notice if I was in a beige office cubicle, working between two monitors for 10 hours a day. I feel like I'm opening, releasing, remembering.

Remembering who I am. The last few years, I've been telling friends that I've felt that I'd forgotten who I am. Work, stress, not enough time, bills, health issues - no time to be me, to be a friend, to volunteer at church, to connect with cousins and family the way I wanted, the way that fulfills me and gives me happiness. For one job, my commute was about 4 hours a day in heavy LA traffic. In another, I was a square peg in a round hole; not a good fit, no matter how I tried to adapt to a company culture that was so different from any other I'd ever experienced.

The past couple of weeks, people have been "showing up" to remind me of who I am. It's been wonderful! A beloved cousin who I haven't spoken with in many years suddenly called from Korea where she's living right now. "You sound just the same!" she said, which made me so happy. An old high school friend has shown up and we've exchanged e-mails filled with the same intelligent wit that we shared in high school. "Your personality is as sparkling as ever!" she wrote. A former co-worker has also shown up, a real girl friend who I always enjoy so much and who I can share girl things with. Whenever she and I reconnect, it's always at the most perfect time and she brings me laughter and refreshment and joy in being female. I sometimes wonder why we don't stay in touch more regularly, but then I realize that, too, is part of God's perfect plan.

The Tibetan language has no word for "unemployment". For most of the world, work used to be seasonal: farmers and ranchers would work their land or care for their stock for most of the year. After the harvest, the land - and the people - would rest, being renewed, refreshed seasonally. Other chores would take the place of the usual farming and ranching, in accordance with the seasons. The land and the people lived in harmony with nature and the cycles of the year. Western culture doesn't embrace this same harmony. Our 24/7 accessibility to work - Blackberrys blazing, e-mails flooding inboxes night and day - doesn't provide the rest and renewal cycle that our natures need.

Right now, I feel that the Divine - my Lord and God - has given me this time to reconnect and to remember who I am, to renew my spirit. I am happier and brighter, laughing more and laughing more easily. I'm opening up and releasing - aaaahhhhhh! - letting go of what was, to embrace what is. This is a time of restoration, rejuvenation, growth, beauty. A time to pause and to remember to live with intention. Thank you, God.

Namaste

5 comments:

Mercy said...

Buy ghee????? I've never heard of such a thing!!!!

Melt one pound of unsalted butter in a sauce pan on medium heat. Remember, the better the butter, the better the ghee, so use organic butter if you can. As the butter melts it will begin to boil and separate (white froth on top with sediment settling to the bottom of the pan). Keep the butter boiling steadily. Do not stir. Allow the butter to continue to cook until the bubbling noise quietens down, the sediment at the bottom of the pan starts to turn golden brown (you can check the colour of the sediment by gently tilting the pan), and the liquid under the froth begins to turn an amber colour (it usually takes about 20 minutes). The smell also change to that of freshly baked croissants. All these signs indicate that all the water has evaporated, and that you must turn off the flame immediately or the ghee will burn quickly. Leave the cooked ghee to cool for half an hour, then line a strainer with some cheese cloth and strain the ghee into sterilised jars. Discard the sediment (in India, it is used for pujas, fire rituals, my dog loves it). The ghee will turn hard when cooled and look yellow in colour - it melts quickly when exposed to heat. If it is properly made, ghee will keep for over a year, even outside the fridge.

love,
Mercy

Rose said...

OMIGOSH! Mercy, you are the best! I'm buying butter tomorrow!

dec0r8or said...

Ok, I have no idea what on earth you would use ghee for (I must have missed something here), but I do want to say that I love this, Rose:

"I am living my life with joy in each day, practicing living with intention, being fully present, stillness, acceptance, love, peace."

I aspire to the above. I'd say I'm about halfway there. :) I'll keep coming here for inspiration.

daisy cottage said...

"letting go of what was to embrace what is".....

Thank you Rose for that inspiration - so timely. I'm happy that you are embracing these moments of your life that you are experiencing now. I will think of you being on your morning walk when I am embarking on mine. ((hugs))
Kim

LADY LUXIE said...

How lovely and inspiring. Everything you said here is so true and has given me such a reason to smile this morning.

Tahnk you.